Now would be a great time to admit that everything seems upside down…that everything seems to be shaken and tossed around…things I didn’t plan for and things I never thought would happen. Why does God let all this happen so fast, so crazy? Most of me thinks I should be totally off-kilter right now.
But the weird thing is…I’m not.
I’m really OK. And everything else and everybody else is not only OK, but starting to thrive and, honestly, God is moving mightily in me too.
Our church and ministry is going through some change in leadership and a realignment in focus, burden, and vision. With all that we have been through as a frontlines ministry (suicide, adultery, divorce, brokenness, poverty, etc.), another crazy time of upheaval is not exactly ideal. My, what I no longer call “better judgement,” would say that this is a great time to panic. That’s it Lord, no more…I quit! I’m sick of this! Uncle! Uncle! Uncle! Hit the big red button…ABORT.
But in the midst of this screwy, topsy-turvy happenstance…I shall not be moved. Truly my soul waits on the Lord…from HIM comes my salvation. He only is my rock, my salvation, and my defense. POWER belongs to Him and Him only. AND I SHALL NOT BE MOVED. Not one of these things; not being poor, tired, overwhelmed, ridiculed, stretched out of joint, or warred against, NONE OF THESE THINGS SHALL MOVE ME.
I am so very blessed to serve a God who lifts me up over all the sharp rocks and possible pitfalls. What an absolute fortunality to be where I am at. No matter what the circumstance, I am just happy to be along for the ride. Who am I, that you have brought me this far?
Who am I?
Well, I am an emotional and easily frustrated man. I am given to anger at times…my passion can mess me up. I get turned around, spun out, and flipped inside out over stupid issues. I am crazy, weak, prideful, and flat-out out of control at times. That’s who I am. I am not worthy.
So, in this transition, who the heck am I to even have my head up…let alone rise armor-clad, filled with holy fire, waving a banner and blasting the trumpet of God. I should NOT be here…but through the eyes of redemption I AM…
…By the blood of the Lamb. And only by this blood do I face the future with gusto.